Monday, February 16, 2009, 5:30 AM
*confused* is the only word to describe how i am feeling now
it happens ytd when i wanted to drop her a msg ytd
but suddenly i just felt really reluctant to type that msg
it just struck me like "y am i msgin, who is she to me??"
den i sat and tink
this one-sided affair thing
thinkin back to wat i've done in the past,
no matter how hard i tried
after all these yrs
from her havin a bf to no bf
somehow i juz did not manage to move her heart
den i ask myself
"y am i tryin all this while when my effort does not seems to
reciprocate back the way i hope for??"
"y am i holdin on to her when there are much btr ones out there??"
she is not the prettiest girl i have seen
she does not have the nicest figure i have seen
but why do i still like her all this while even though she is not the best?
although i have no strong feelings for her now,
but strange enough somehow the sour feeling still stays in my heart
whenever seeing and tinkin of her with another guy,
that sour feelin would juz struck me
why?? do i still like her or iziit juz me not being able to let go??
haix...
juz feel like lettin it all out here todae
lettin out my inner most feeling which i kept in my heart for so long
